I write about a simple life, not taking things for granted or waiting to tell someone you love them. I knew what I wanted to write today, I wanted to write about the myths concerning this month as being the end of our lifetimes as we know it. I almost shelved the whole idea since yesterday, but have decided I will simply modify what I was going to write and send it out there to the world. So this post is more for me to work through the feelings I am having.
Yesterday, I heard the horrible news about the children and adults who were killed in their elementary school, such a senseless despicable act and such a horrible time of year to have to go through a loss, especially one so violent.
I have lost 3 relatives between Thanksgiving and Christmas in various years. One year my family suffered a loss in each month between September and January. But none of them were of the magnitude of this weeks’ loss. I know people who have lost children, but due to an illness, one they at least knew was coming. I can’t imagine the pain these families are living right now, my losses will never compare to this kind of pain.
My grand daughter called last night and asked if she could spend the night with me. How could I say no. I try to never be too busy for those I love. When she spends the night she thinks it’s a treat to share my bed. After she was asleep, I wrapped my arms softly around her and sent out a silent prayer that she will never have to suffer or witness something so horrible in her young life.
What I had planned to write today was a short post menti0ning the things I would do if I knew this was my last day on earth. So with that in mind, I am going to list those things so I never forget.
- Spend time with loved ones, but actually tell them how much I love them and why, by telling them what exactly makes them unique.
- Head out into the cold and remove my shoes to run my toes through the frosted grass to remember how it felt.
- Smile at everyone I encounter
- Smile at the geese who wake me in the morning as they fly overhead.
- Call a good friend I haven’t seen in a while
- End the day with a book, a cup of tea and silence
Today I did all those things. I was woken by the little one who pulled the curtains next to the bed open and started to list all the animals she saw in the field. Then we went outside to run our fingers and toes through the frosted grass then filled the bird feeders to ensure we weren’t the only ones today who would have a good meal. We smiled as we watched the geese flying overhead and called out to them trying to imitate their sounds. I called my friend, and had a nice conversation. Tonight, I’m going to curl up with a cup of tea and rather than a book I have a cross stitch I want to add a little more too.
Life can be simple. Life can be complicated. Life can be lived at a speed we didn’t know existed. But I need to try to remember to say I love you each and every day. I need to remember to live each day as if it were my last so I will never have any regrets.
Finally, if any one reading this has had a loss this month, or any year during the holidays, not just this week, please know my thoughts are with you and feel free to leave a comment if you need someone to talk to. I will be there for anyone who needs an ear.